We revolt against the darkness, our minds filled with groaning, enduring the pain and sadness, praying for the time when the Divine Presence will once again be revealed to us. This is the medley of human life: faith and sorrow, insight and darkness, joy and agony, singing in counterpart through our days. But God wants us to know that through it all the Divine Presence is the melody that never changes.”
All Shall be Well - A Modern Language Version of “Revelations of Divine Love” - Julian of Norwich
To understand her words, we ought to remember that she is describing the inherent state of our soul. Both Christ and Adam dwell within. So, variance is true of all redeemed souls. She doesn’t attribute the mixed experience as consequence of our surroundings. It is true that events or situations of life, good or bad, have an impact upon our spirit. But since by nature our souls experience instability, trying to remedy that variation by controlling our environment proves ineffective. We can be down when our circumstances are up — or up when everything around us is falling apart. We are a “mingling of health and wounds.”
So is there good news in all of this? Yes! Hope is found in two truths. First, it won't always be this way. There will be an eternal instant when immutable perfection and wholeness has the final word. Christ wins within us. Second - until that instant comes, we are held by Jesus in love. Beneath our struggle, the arms of grace are strong. The Spirit stands as the eye of our hurricane. The Father who lives outside of time encompasses our moments with mercy. Therefore, our soul’s fluctuations do not condemn us. Likewise, they need not discourage us. We are constantly held even if our struggles blind us to His grip.
Julian describes our journey with the sound of a song. We may hear discordant notes as delight and despair play antiphonal tunes. But if I pause and let silence have a voice; underneath I hear God humming a melody of great faithfulness, deep deep love and His nearness which abides with me. This singing of God allows me to admit my own off key tune and accept it as simply the nature of learning to sing a new song - the music of God.
“He put a new song in my mouth, a song of praise to our God.” Ps.40:3