I am surrounded by things that break and need to be fixed. So a trip to the hardware store or an appointment with a mechanic will usually remedy the situation. It will cost me some time and more dollars that I want - but at least the item will be working again. That mindset is fine if we are talking about toasters - but I am not a toaster. Souls are not machines that can be restored with replacement parts. It would be great if I could take my soul to a professional, leave it in the shop for a few hours and get it back running smoothly and even washed. We know that's foolish, but it's often what we ask God to do. Just fix us! Take out the bad parts, put in good ones and send us on our way with some sort of warranty. Fix our hurts. Repair our mistakes. Restore our dis-order.
But, we are not so much fixed as we are grown. (Being alive has it's parameters!) Growing takes longer than being fixed. I should remember that when I think that God is non responsive to my pleas. (“Scott, I have heard you and am working on this, but it is going to take a while.”) Being fixed is something done for you as you sift through old magazines and drink stale coffee. But being grown is something done with me. I have to participate in ways that are healthy for my soul. There are things required of me. Being fixed points only to a problem; something broken. While there is much in my soul that is broken, being grown points past my problems. Growing whispers to me that there are joys yet unexplored, discoveries that will delight and a state of being that my soul can expand into. We are not just problems to solve but people who grow into a relationship with God which even eternity will not stifle.